I’m too aggressive with my words, my actions, my thoughts. I can’t help it. I want the best for myself. I like to say that I’m motivated- even ambitious- but even I recognize that sometimes I can be too much.
I took the Myers-Briggs test. It states that there are 16 personalities in the world. 16 personalities and I have one of them. ENTJ-T. Extroverted. Intuitive. Thinking. Judging. Turbulent.
In other words, I’m described as “the commander” or “the executive” or in other, other words, the one that tends to be bossy, commanding, managing, loud, and meticulous.
Which is all true. I have very high standards for people and I believe that most people could achieve much greater things if they actually tried. I know that this form of thinking can be extremely overbearing for most people to handle. Because of this, I come off as intimidating which (let’s be real for a second) sort of sucks. Now, I think I have an average amount of friends and I tell them most things about myself, but sometimes I have to really restrict what I say so as not to become interpreted as rude. Sensitivity is something that I struggle understanding too. How can someone be so sensitive to something that is either A) not a big problem, or B) can be solved.
I’m assertive, not aggressive, and the reason that I come off as so over-bearing is that only 2% of the world’s population has this type of personality type. An even smaller percentage of that is women that have this type of personality. So, of course, I’m going to be interpreted as I am. Most people aren’t familiar with it.
If you’re reading this, you’re probably thinking- what’s the point of this whole rant? And I don’t know what the entire point is. I think that maybe I can stand to be a little less aggressive and more sensitive, especially towards others and those I care about. I guess that’s the point?